This is hard to write, but unfortunately, not unfamiliar. This journey has been a long one that began over two years ago – this journey to start a family. And it is with a heavy heart that I let you all know – another chapter ends sadly.
This past weekend, after 4 ½ months, we lost our baby. Since the beginning of our pregnancy, Cori had a blood clot that caused bleeding throughout her first trimester. We didn’t know why it was there, and there wasn’t anything anyone could do, so we just monitored it, and waited.
We knew that her cervix looked great. The cerclage was a success, and we were confident, but the blood clot had weakened the amniotic membrane, and Cori’s water broke prematurely. At that point, there was nothing to be done.
There were moments in the past year where we told ourselves that we could never survive the loss of another child. We were wrong. Losing Charlie had changed us, and the result of that change was this: we survived and would find a way to move on again.
We have said before that we are in this for the long haul. That we will have a family no matter the cost – whatever it takes. Again, we are faced with a gauntlet of emotions, but we stand firm that this journey – despite great personal loss – will go on.
One day, you will get an update with pictures of our baby. One day, we will celebrate the joy of a journey hard traveled. And that one day, I know that this will all be worth it.
Until then, your love and prayers are always welcome as we continue down the road. But know in your hearts that we will find a way onward, together.